Well it has been an interesting few months. If seeing Bruce Springsteen in March 2013 livened up my life and gave me an inward focus on what I need to do for my personal happiness, then seeing him again in February 2014 has had somewhat of the reverse effect, sparking off a course of action that has contributed to the neglect of a few good habits.
I can pinpoint that the demise of all things 'organised' health wise began in November 2013, when a minor car accident led to me suffering whiplash (which has another fancy name that I forget). It was disconcerting to find out that this condition only sets in days after the accident (as mine did) and can take a considerable time to heal :(
Having constantly sore and tense shoulders just does nothing for me. I find it is a bit of a self-sustaining problem, where the pain causes tension that causes more pain.
I have also been busy away from my 'good habits' of blogging, exercise, and gratitude in dealing with hard decisions and making tough choices. Probably still not enough of them, but I'm spending a fair amount of time trying to tie up loose ends and do more than just react to situations as they happen with my father and my own life.
Neglecting to blog and neglecting my health has been a huge blow. All in all, what I've managed to do through not be vigilant is actually gain considerable weight again. So I'm now back to heavier than 12 months ago. I do feel that it will be easier to reduce down again, now that I've done it once. Then I close my eyes, feel the pain across the back of my neck and wonder if I'm kidding myself.
I have learnt something however. I have visited my GP twice about feeling I was going the wrong way with my weight loss / fitness and that I was losing my way. He kept being inanely positive at me. But in the end, I knew in my gut that I was in trouble, that life was butting in too much into my routines, that I was struggling too much with the added pressure of working 3 days per week. I will in future always listen to the part of me that is naggingly certain of impending calamity when it comes to weight.
So my goal for May is to reinstate as many good habits as I can squeeze in.
